तो क्या होता !!!!!

आज मेरे एक मित्र ने मुझे डायरी से बाहर कुछ लिखने को कहा , बहुत दिन हो गया था और मैंने भी सोचा ब्लॉग पे ही क्यूँ नहीं ॥ मूड भी था और कीबोर्ड जुबाँ के लफ्जों को अपने में समाने को धक्के देने लगी..

दोस्त ने कहा , तुम छा गए .......
मेरा जबाब कुछ ऐसा था ,

छाना या न छाना तो तब पता चलता है,
जब कोई दिन के उजाले में निकले ।
हम तो रात के अँधेरे में निकला करते है,
और वो भी माहताब से छुपकर।

अब तो कहने को सिर्फ यही है ...

खो जाने दे मुझे, सो जाने दे मुझे,
भूक-भूक कर जलने से क्या हासिल !!!
बुझ जाने दे मुझे !!!!!!!!!!!! क्यूंकि....

गरीबों की जबानी नहीं होती ,
बिधवाओं का सौंदर्य नहीं होता।
उग्रवाद का कोई धर्मं नहीं होता,
बंदी योद्धा में जोश नहीं होता।

इसपे उसका जबाब था...

लेकिन सहारा देने पर , सबको सब कुछ मिल सकता है,
क्यूंकि डूबते को सिर्फ तिनके का सहारा चाहिए होता है।

उसका कहना सही था, अब मेरा कटाक्ष ....

विलाशी युवराज को ताजोपोश नसीब नहीं होता,
आलसी लोग कभी सफल नहीं होता,
सिर्फ भगवान से मांगने से , कुछ नहीं होता !

इसपे वो गौण रह गया....

मैं कहता हूँ , भले नहीं होता ,
यदि इन्हे होता भी तो, क्या होता !!!!!!!

Larsen and Toubro.. ( 04/02/2010 )

after a long wait of 1-2 months , got through in L & T. it was really a nice feeling, as my desire was to work in core company. now it is almost certain my career will start in L &T.
...
i do not want to write more here about my feelings.
m really happy person now..
thanks maa kali for ur blessings !!!!

finally got one in infosys..on 29th dec

i am posting this blog very late although had written it on time during my journey to mumbai ,on the same very day.
finally, after a series of bad luck things fell rightly as i got a job.yes i am very relieved at least for now.Thanks to infosys.now i will be able to go with my full potential for meal (a core job) but yes, breakfast (infosys) is satisfactory enough. i can wait and sit only for good companies now.
VERY INTERESTINGLY as i am bit superstitious i changed my interview file,photograph,c.v. pattern and these changes paid me .
thanks Amit for your lucky file,
thanks Ravi for your reminder about new photograph,
thanks myself for all these ideas.. :) [:p] ,
and most importantly thanks mummy for your blessings and the wishes you made for me from SAIBABA.
(coincidentally my mother and father had visited saibaba temple at sridi one day before, as per pre-plan i was also supposed to be there but cud not go as i was unplaced till then and had to be at campus for companies to come.

ONE OF THE WORST DAY of my life....

जिंदगी के इस सफ़र में न जाने कितने मुकाम पर कई बार सुख और दुःख का अनुभूति हुआ , कई बार किन्कर्ताव्यबिमुध होना पड़ा, कई बार ऐसे प्रश्नों का सामना हुआ जब जबाब नहीं मिल पाया ।
कल जो भी हुआ वह अन्दर से झकझोड़ देने वाला था । क्या मैं TCS के भी लायक नहीं था !!!! इतना अच्छा INTERVIEW जाने के बाद भी ( i spoke almost 10-15 minutes on automobile, answered his one and only question on c++,all the design soft wares were mentioned in my resume, what else he was looking for ??!!! .i was very confident as this was not the first interview i was facing and made points about TATA which the fucking H.R. would have never heard of.
placement process was not transparent at all , was worst managed, and lacked planning at every stages.) मेरा नाम फ़ाइनल लिस्ट में नहीं था। अन्दर से इतना tough होने के बावजूद भी कल "काटो तो खून नहीं "वाली बात मेरे साथ थी, समझ में नहीं आ रहा था की क्या हो रहा है ।
दोस्तों दुःख इस बात का नहीं है कि tcs में job नहीं लगा , बल्कि दुःख इस बात का है कि TCS में भी नहीं हुआ !!!! सच पूछो तो आज के date में फॉर्म भरते -भरते और interview में बैठते-बैठते मेरा सारा फोटो ख़त्म हो गया है फिर भी अभी तक placement नहीं हुआ है ।
army, navy, maruti, hero-honda, tcs. i don't know how many to follow :( :(:( NEXT company i am going to face is INFOSYS on 29th and 30th of this month. god please make it my last one in the race of "one software job" ।
वैसे अभी मैं फोटो खिचवाने जा रहा हूँ , भगवान् के कृपा से ये फोटो लकी साबित वो जाये !!!
इकरी TCS WALI बेटी के *****......

Another setback

Two nights continuous journey by BUS... SYMBIOSIS exam in the day time in between,back to manipal at around 6'o clock morning. and here comes the real exam (an opportunity for me to clear "hero-honda" placement process). 9 oclock morning to 11 night praying for the door of luck to open and in between sitting in the ongoing process one after other. finally result came " this time we are going for the 2 people from your college and one we are keeping in waitlist" shocking news for me . yes i was not selected :( :( :( . they took 2 from the final 11 of us who were shortlisted from G.D. round.( total 65-written 21-G.D.11- finally 2+1)
this is the second time i was too far reaching too close.
first in maruti ( 94-23-6) there was no G.D. round in maruti here againg missed by not getting selected in interview. i was in final 23.
god please give me some luck.. nothing has come very easily in my life. please do help here atleast, because i am trying my best for getting thru in placement process.
Is my less CGPA compared to the other written qualified students costing me most???????????
may be !!! may not be !!!! हे माँ काली , मदद करो ......

रश्मिरथी - पंचम सर्ग

भाग-1
आ गया काल विकराल शान्ति के क्षय का,
निर्दिष्ट लग्न धरती पर खंड-प्रलय का.
हो चुकी पूर्ण योजना नियती की सारी,
कल ही होगा आरम्भ समर अति भारी.
कल जैसे ही पहली मरीचि फूटेगी,
रण में शर पर चढ़ महामृत्यु छूटेगी.
संहार मचेगा, तिमिर घोर छायेगा,
सारा समाज दृगवंचित हो जायेगा.
जन-जन स्वजनों के लिए कुटिल यम होगा,
परिजन, परिजन के हित कृतान्त-सम होगा.
कल से भाई, भाई के प्राण हरेंगे,
नर ही नर के शोणित में स्नान करेंगे.
सुध-बुध खो, बैठी हुई समर-चिंतन में,
कुंती व्याकुल हो उठी सोच कुछ मन में.
'हे राम! नहीं क्या यह संयोग हटेगा?
सचमुच ही क्या कुंती का हृदय फटेगा?
'एक ही गोद के लाल, कोख के भाई,
सत्य ही, लड़ेंगे हो, दो ओर लड़ाई?
सत्य ही, कर्ण अनुजों के प्राण हरेगा,
अथवा, अर्जुन के हाथों स्वयं मरेगा?
दो में जिसका उर फटे, फटूँगी मैं ही,
जिसकी भी गर्दन कटे, कटूँगी मैं ही,
पार्थ को कर्ण, या पार्थ कर्ण को मारे,
बरसेंगें किस पर मुझे छोड़ अंगारे?
चींताकुल उलझी हुई व्यथा में, मन से,
बाहर आई कुंती, कढ़ विदुर भवन से.
सामने तपन को देख, तनिक घबरा कर,
सितकेशी, संभ्रममयी चली सकुचा कर.
उड़ती वितर्क-धागे पर, चंग-सरीखी,
सुधियों की सहती चोट प्राण पर तीखी.
आशा-अभिलाषा-भारी, डरी, भरमायी,
कुंती ज्यों-त्यों जाह्नवी-तीर पर आयी.
दिनमणि पश्चिम की ओर क्षितिज के ऊपर,
थे घट उंड़ेलते खड़े कनक के भू पर.
लालिमा बहा अग-अग को नहलाते थे,
खुद भी लज्जा से लाल हुए जाते थे.
राधेय सांध्य-पूजन में ध्यान लगाये,
था खड़ा विमल जल में, युग बाहु उठाये.
तन में रवि का अप्रतिम तेज जगता था,
दीपक ललाट अपरार्क-सदृश लगता था.
मानो, युग-स्वर्णिम-शिखर-मूल में आकर,
हो बैठ गया सचमुच ही, सिमट विभाकर.
अथवा मस्तक पर अरुण देवता को ले,
हो खड़ा तीर पर गरुड़ पंख निज खोले.
या दो अर्चियाँ विशाल पुनीत अनल की,
हों सजा रही आरती विभा-मण्डल की,
अथवा अगाध कंचन में कहीं नहा कर,
मैनाक-शैल हो खड़ा बाहु फैला कर.
सुत की शोभा को देख मोद में फूली,
कुंती क्षण-भर को व्यथा-वेदना भूली.
भर कर ममता-पय से निष्पलक नयन को,
वह खड़ी सींचती रही पुत्र के तन को

rashmirathi

shocking and somewhat surprising !! ( for me)..

This day is one of the saddest days for me in this semester in fact. i am very sad from the verdict given to NDA. From last two months i had kept very close eye on the development in Indian politics , and had huge support for BJP from the core of my heart and the result for me is very sad !! Although from my initial calculation bjp lagged by 25-30 seat but what was most surprising was the seat gained by congress. i would be wrong if i donot mention here that after 3rd phase got over i had statrted expecting BJP led NDA returning to power..
I do not think many would have though of almost 200 seat for congress.
I was praying for some very surprising result today and that did come but not in the favor of party I wanted ( bjp). Congress gained substantial margin of seat and is ready to form next govt.
A very high level of change and direction is needed in the agenda of BJP, because you have lost twice with the same approach. no doubt party worked really hard but something clearly went wrong to touch the nerve of public.
my one of the most favorite leader shri L.K. advani ji is on the verge of resignation from active politics. (Although he had already thought of that after finishing his book , so it should not be attached very much with the loss of bjp ) . I pay tribute to this great leader who devoted his whole life for the service of country. there will definitely be very big void in the party and country as far as his political experience , knowledge and charisma is concerned. that will be the END OF an ERA in indian politics.
I have got very tough weeks ahead as my end semester exam is going on ..
lastly..
Bhay ho..
Bhukh ho..
Aatank ho.
Reservation ho ..
FIR bhi jai ho..
jai ho India , jai ho Indian public and jai ho election 2009...

last happiness is that govt will run for full 5 years AND i am not some one who hates MMS and Rahul gandhi. it is over to you now rahul , hope you bring urs ideas for poor and common people into reality.
bye election...
~~jai hind ~~

Doubt in HIS belief and belief in HIS doubt…

I still remember Navjot Singh Sidhu’s commentary for one of the greatest batsman of India while he was on crease - saying ‘he has doubt in his belief and belief in his doubt’ . I was very annoyed then because that batsman happens to be my favourate for his braveness and fighter attitude. sidhu's statement was not suitable bcz the batsman ended up making 50 in that inning. Yes, he was sourav ganguly ...
Anyway, in today’s context if I apply same to Mr. Rahul Gandhi, I think that will be more suitable and i am sure i will not be wrong like sidhu !!
I liked him little bit in the begining because when this gentleman entered politics, I had intense discussion with my friend VIPUL. He convinced me somehow with his points (like rahul's major subject of study being the India’s neighbor countries etc. etc. ). I had not agreed totally because, I never like the person on whom greatness is imposed (more clearly to say by birth or by relation) ,unless he proves it by work.
Rahul Gandhi’s recent statement has again made me to think on his abilities –
To highlight this –

1> 2-3 days before when he visited Bengal his statement was “ left is entirely responsible for the poor condition of this state” and today he said “ I am sure left will support us and we will welcome their decision” many times left has said they will not go with congress.
2> Despite Knowing the fact that anti-congress is in D.N.A. of Chandrababu Naidu. he praised his work in Andhra , while his party had several things to complain in 2004 state election.
3> Nitish Kumar had cleary denied Shila dixit’s statement of any talk with congress and other front and had said if any one thinks of that it will be completely waste of time, but rahul ji today again praised nitish kumar’s work in Bihar.( think politically) bcz a political person is giving statement.
4> 2 days before Manmohan singh ji told that black money issue raised by BJP was totally political stunt but Rahul ji today in press conference spoke in support of black money issue.
Rahul Gandhi when entered politics. inspite of being an anti-congress I had developed some thing good about him but I regret saying that he is not up to the mark. comeon rahul you are only hope in congress , AND i feel you have really got some good ideas for the poor and common people of this country, hope you do it if given verdict..
Congress definitely lacks politicians having though of national interest, BJP is way ahead of them….

(3rd phase) poor turn out again !! gr8 changes needed..

"it was pubic anger mumbai had rarely seen before , thousands of them targetting system and demanding changes came on road but 5 months later when it came to exercise the real power almost 57% of public preferred doing other stuff than to go and cast vote !!! "

only 43% voter turn out in mumbai when watch showed 5 pm, on 30th april.. LESSER THAN 2004 TURN-OUT...
now let us see what the pappus of delhi do ..:)
many of them say public is not to blame entirely of this poor turn-out but yes 57% people can not have the same problem of
1>poor management by govt staff on duty..
2> difficulties in finding his/her name in voter list or which polling booth person belongs to..
3> missing the name from voter list..
4> vote casted already by some one else..
5> bad weather..
these are the things that definitely disappoint the person concerned but not the people who is really committed !!.
so if you need change you have to be dedicated, one can not expect system to be 100% correct.
i would blame JANTA for all this , it is they who make corrupt politicians to use them.
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donot forget there is great amount of changes necessary to make 60 years old constitution effective in present scenario. almost 20% voters constitutes of students,workers and employees who work away from their home town. and many more reasons are there not to mention here..
AS Mr. Advani suggested for compulsory voting today, we need to have debate on such topics in parliament to make sure we have higher turn out..
what i think ... there should be one option of "rejecting" and candidate with certain fixed number of rejection should not be allowed to contest for next 2 to 3 terms.. these things will surely bring people to polling booths..
we must go for debate on such ponts .................. JAI HIND ......